Sweating, pounding, grinding, echoing, screeching...
It was sordid down under. I couldn’t believe I’ve been to a place bereft of life and happiness. I tried my luck and pushed the button… 1,2,3,4,5…15…30……50…….100 feet below the ground! Legend has it that you can only escape from hell if you perform the given tasks with specifications. Take note: with exact specifications.
We reached the bottom. The elevator slowly opened, giving us a grand entryway. Amused but terrified. The place was impregnated with awful air. It was some sort of an emergency room and everybody seemed very busy. One lady approached without uttering a word. My instincts told me to follow her. Alas! We found our individual cells. Each was placed in a small cell, like one cubicle in a not-so-stylish restroom, without a toilet bowl, faucet or even a chair to relax your ass with while waiting. I waited impatiently. I was so impatient that I couldn’t help but notice people outside. As I peeked through the windowpane, there was a man with convoluted tattoos holding a huge local knife. I thought he was going to kill me for Christ-sake. Am I going to be next? What strength, power or agility do I have to fight against this hooligan?
With a sigh of relief, the door opened. I expected to see a lot of people just like the moment I arrived in that place. I was wrong, there was no one. I was transported to another world. It was too peaceful, beautiful, magnificent, but lethargic. It didn’t meet my expectation of a battlefield but the creepy thoughts were still playing inside my head. I supposed there were creatures stealthily hiding from the bushes, trees and mountains waiting to devour their precious pawn. I have nothing to defend myself with in case these enemies would attack. No amulets, swords, or magical spells. Just a hippie girl trying to be courageous. Then, a piece of paper slowly dropped from the heavens. It was a note from the chieftain of hell:
Task: Capture a pigeon and enjoy your meal!
Time Limit: 24 hours
Whoa! How can I catch a soaring pigeon without tools for hunting?
A brilliant idea hit me. And so I played dead thinking that I can lure the pigeon to eat my flesh on the ground. It was my last resort. I couldn’t think of any profound way to physically immobilize a pigeon. I know pigeons are smart but I still hoped my scheme would work for these birds. I badly need a pigeon in 24 hours. Fortunately, a pigeon went closer to my still body. As it draws nearer, my heart increasingly pounds with inexplicable excitement. I only have one chance. I need to get this done. Time was ticking away.
Seconds later…
Bravo! My flashing hand quickly choked the pigeon’s neck. With no sign of remorse, I killed the poor pigeon. I thought it was over. I remembered the legend. I need to perform the exact specifications. The note said to capture a pigeon and enjoy your meal. But I couldn’t eat a raw pigeon. I can’t take it but I had no choice. I took a bite at the pigeon’s neck. It was nauseatingly bloody. Have I turned into a voracious beast? How could I do such an act?
Then another note dropped from the sky:
You need to eat: 50% raw pigeon or 25% cooked pigeon
Not again! Specs should be followed in order to escape. I decided to create a fire and cook the pigeon just so I could only eat ¼ of the pigeon’s body. I need to do it before my 24-hour limit… before I’d be sucked into the dungeon of oblivion forever.
Sweating, pounding, grinding, echoing, screeching...
Have I escaped? Or have I been forgotten?
Tick tock, tick tock! The clock struck!
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Dreams are sometimes simple but oftentimes they’re too hard to understand. There have been a lot of studies conducted about dreams. Why do people dream? Is dreaming a by-product of the conscious expressed in the unconscious? Dreams that occur during the REM (Rapid Eye Movement) sleep stage tend to be remembered vividly.
I just had a lucid dream and I want to share this because I want to share a part of my unconscious. To let others see what I saw, feel what I felt, perceive what I perceived and interpret what I may fail to interpret. I’m not really a fan of Sigmund Freud, famous for his psychoanalytic theory, but I would just like people to be imaginative and introspective of themselves. You may never know, interpreting dreams would help you get to know yourself better in the unconscious level.
Here are possible interpretations to my dream:
Physiological/Physical Sense: I was too hungry, my stomach dictated my brain to find and cook for something out from nowhere.
Cognitive Sense: I absorbed a lot of information from the physical world before I slept and my brain created stories out from those sensory perceptions. I could remember I was reading my sister Julie’s blog about defecating and all sorts of nasty things. I also revisited my old blog and my sister Jackie’s blog about MED life. I probably created a negative mental aversion about what she’s doing with her cadaver in med school.
Emotional/Psychological Sense: I may still be in constant battle with how life really sucks for the past few months. Death of our grandpa, financial crisis, family crisis, name them all. I’m trying to escape from the responsibilities but I just couldn’t do so. I have to follow orders, exact specifications as expressed in my dream. I want to do something really great to be able to escape and I want to do something outstanding so that people will not forget me. But in my search for greatness, I became nobody. Life doesn’t stop there though. I can be somebody, someday and prove to the world that I am not an animal who can be shooed away. It’s getting too mushy so I’d better stop. ^^
See what dreams can give you? You engage in a deeper understanding of the self. You alone can interpret your dreams more than any other psychoanalytic or psychic person for that matter. If you have more interpretations to my dream feel free to drop comments! You can also share some of your dreams here so we could help you interpret…^^
June 23rd, 2006 at 8:12 pmasa man ka nakadungog ana ba? Kinsa man gasulti ana ba?
June 23rd, 2006 at 8:52 pmyep..blogging is not exhibitionism.im not a blogger but i bet,writers or bloggers get satisfied only when we get some feedback.a reality one can never deny.why not keep a personal diary instead if one does not intend to let others know our thoughts?then,bloggers must be somehow waitng for response..BUT that is way way far from exhibitionism..
June 24th, 2006 at 1:24 amthen again what is his/her definition of exhibitionism?hmmm..?
June 24th, 2006 at 2:12 amexhibitionism….
indecent and compulsive exposure of the genitals in public to acquire attention… saonz!!!
June 24th, 2006 at 4:42 amdamn!!! asa ka nkadungog ana cham? im a blogger although dli au ko maka post daily, still you know me to be the blogger na mu-share jud sa iya feelings bwt, almost everything…exhibitionism? haller?! i agree with grace, its way far from blogging…blogging is one way of expressing ourselves, not exposing ourselves!!!! duh?!!!?
June 24th, 2006 at 5:45 ammulang… pero sowee mara i cant tell u knsay nisulti anah…ahihi… i still respect her… bsag mean kaau iyang comment bout blogging…ahihihihi… ^_^
June 24th, 2006 at 8:06 pmi beg to disagree.
exhibitionism para nako, is deriving pleasure from showing a part of yourself to others, and not just on physical terms.
blogging is still part exhibitionism. i mean, why not? being an exhib doesnt have to be all about sex y’know. defy the borders of basic dictionary meaning. if you bare yourself for people to see, and actually get the kick out of it, that is exhibitionism.
June 26th, 2006 at 1:09 ampsychologically or psychiatrically speaking, exhibitionism is the incapability of the mind to control the compulsive exposure of oneself, not necessarily the genitals, to attract public attention. in short it’s an abnormal act… a deviation from the norm!
you can’t blame us, psych studs for perceiving things scientifically…or even if we try to defy the borders of basic dictionary meaning, we still couldnt get the negative impact of the term itself! it isnt just the appropriate term to describe blogging… it could have been sumthing that’s positive in its sense…
i have nothing against those who feel to disagree with me…everyone’s comment is respected… and im happy that we’re trying to exercise the art of argumentation…^_^
June 30th, 2006 at 6:54 amhey… ingna cya ha… pabasaha sa akong blog, basin ma.usab iyang definition sa ‘exhibitionism’… pero i’m not saying i’m ‘flashing’ something there… just tell her to visit natio… basin makasabot cya sa difference.
& if ngpatagad jud ang mga bloggers, so be it… with her mere comment, it just proves that she pays attention 2 d blogger’s alleged endeavor. hahaha!
July 2nd, 2006 at 9:10 pmi think that people react basically to what society is considered as a standard..and yes exhibitionism does have a sexual cum negative impact to the ears..but the nothing is, you go beyond the dictionary meaning, because really, its only a matter of perspective.
July 5th, 2006 at 7:38 amsoweee ass di ko ka dare mo ingon sa iyaha…
yeah it’s a matter of perspective rah… but may unta kung ang perspective sa mga taw kay positive… di mn gud nimo ma help kay ang nature sa word nega na gud… how wud u actually shift the perspective from negative to positive.
July 8th, 2006 at 4:51 amexhibitionism…hmmm… makadawat pa ko’s ksp nga word better than dat. however dependnt mn xa’s paggamit. remember meaning varies (possibly radically) upon the writer, the reader, and the dictionary.
i blv the word’s a bit harsh to descryb this act of self expression. we blog coz we wnt to share (hope that someone shares) our sentimnts w/ us. basta! the word’s just not the ryt one.
July 8th, 2006 at 8:56 ammu jed… wrong kaau ang word…^:)^
July 17th, 2006 at 1:11 amsory na jud cham nag kamali ra to si u know.. hehe… impulsive ra to oi… nyahahaha. maybe wala xa kasuway ug blog.. iya mistake ato kay iya cguro gi generalize, cguro kay naay mga blogger na nag exhibtion nyahahahaha
July 17th, 2006 at 9:49 ambtaw… i knw la jud to niya gi mean… la mn sad ko nasuko… im just trying to defend “US”… ahiihihi.. mga vlogers…^_^